
Why hasn’t God healed me?
I used to think suffering was meant to teach me lessons—hard but good life lessons—and as soon as I learned what God wanted me to
ARTICLES BY COLLEEN CHAO

I used to think suffering was meant to teach me lessons—hard but good life lessons—and as soon as I learned what God wanted me to

Dear Younger Self—I know it’s cliché,But I would go back if I couldTo say: Make yourself small,Don’t resent being weak—Humility before GodWill set you free.

If you know me, you’ve heard me say again and again, “Cancer doesn’t have the corner on the market of suffering.” Nor does cancer define

September 29, 2006 You use pain so wisely,With infinite care,Knowing right whereTo push and pull and tearAnd break and burnUntil I’ve finally learnedWith all my

June 14, 2022 Mystery— Living in theIn-betweenThe unknownThe not-yet Shadow, substanceLong and shortHandspan, breath…Infinite Holding on andLetting goOpen handedLingering Fragile, fearfulUnmoved, strongLaughing joyBitter drink Hoping

As I did in 2021, I’m posting some of the email updates I send to friends and family. I typically edit these down a bit

Dear readers, Below is a collection of emails I’ve sent to friends regarding my second, and terminal, cancer diagnosis. I’ve edited out the more personal

Three years ago today, my phone rang with terrible news. My doctor’s office called to inform me they finally had the results of my three-and-a-half

When I was a child, my mother passed along to me a deep appreciation for the life story and writings of Elisabeth Elliot. As a

What is it about a good story? Kate DiCamillo said it best in The Tale of Despereaux: “Why would you save me?” Despereaux asked. “Have

I used to think suffering was meant to teach me lessons—hard but good life lessons—and

Dear Younger Self—I know it’s cliché,But I would go back if I couldTo say: Make

If you know me, you’ve heard me say again and again, “Cancer doesn’t have the

September 29, 2006 You use pain so wisely,With infinite care,Knowing right whereTo push and pull

June 14, 2022 Mystery— Living in theIn-betweenThe unknownThe not-yet Shadow, substanceLong and shortHandspan, breath…Infinite Holding

Dear readers, Below is a collection of emails I’ve sent to friends regarding my second,

Three years ago today, my phone rang with terrible news. My doctor’s office called to

When I was a child, my mother passed along to me a deep appreciation for

What is it about a good story? Kate DiCamillo said it best in The Tale